I have been doing alot of thinking lately and I have come to a conclusion- I am proud of the person I have become. During these past 3 years I have gone through alot of shit and the trials will never stop coming because that's life, but somehow I have always made it out stronger. I am keeping my head up and holding it high. I can't say I always make the best choices, because by no means possible am I perfect. I am a beautiful disaster who enjoys life. I might take some things too seriously when I shouldn't but I am learning. My mistakes are mine, and mine to fix. My choices are mine, and mine to own. I break down from time to time but I won't ever stay down, it's my life and I'll keep fighting the trials. I'm loving life and I won't stop.

That moment when you don't feel alone, yet no one is in the room with you. I can't quite figure out who it is but at this exact moment I am overwhelmed with a little sadness, alot of joy but mostly love. I get this feeling everything is okay. I feel arms around me in a warm embrace, my aunts name comes to mind at the moment. Although I feel like it could be my grandma I am not too sure. All I know is I enjoy these visits and feel so loved when they occur.

In My Dreams

Dear Joey, I never thought it would be so hard or hurt so much to say goodbye, I knew it would hurt and I knew it would be hard but this pain is insane. In the years following our first meeting were rocky but we quickly developed a friendship that would be amazing. I don't think the hit I am taking is one that anyone expected, and I didn't think I would either. The truth it is killing me, I can't believe I had to say goodbye. You were only 18, so young and so much potential. From the first time I met you, I considered you my nephew. I am so thankful for the memories we shared and jokes we played. I loved our "boxing matches", jokes, and hanging out on the couch. I miss making you watch The Hills with me, I miss helping you with your homework. Thank you for the dreams in which you visted me. My dream after your funeral where you smiled and told me that you were okay and last nights. Last night when you visted and we talked about everything and the hug you gave me. What we talked about is too personal to post but thank you. I needed it, I needed to hear you say "I love you" one last time, and to give me a hug and hold me while I cried. I love you nephew, and I miss you.

fav mobwives quote

"haters are like crickets they chirp all fuckin day and you walk by 'em and they shut the fuck up"-Drita
"I'm never bowin down to none of you mutha fuckas and i will stand there and i will fight til I die"-Drita
"She's a flip floppin floozy"-Ramona
"Check my bloodlines bitch I'm comin for you"-Karen
"As long as I’m loyal to myself, I’m loyal to everyone else.”-Renee
"I speak my mind because it hurts to bite my tongue" - Carla
"All these bitches need to get off my dick. But if I did have a dick they'd all prolly be sucking it"- Drita
"Go back to where the fuck you came from mutha fucka-Drita
"I'll keep comin for you! You dirty hoe"-Karen

i love this show and these ladies; more to come ;)
Every friend has the right to say how they feel to another friend,you wouldnt be a fucking true friend if you didnt say how you feel.-Karen

We fight hard, but we love harder-Renee