Ok so basically this is my first blog on here. I thought I might start off with the basics. I am starting my senior year of high school next week, I am hella nervous about how it will go and college and all that crap. I havent taken Alg II yet and i failed second sem of geometry. I have no clue what i am going to do. because I also haven't taken my SAT or ACT. I am totally lost and need help. I think I might want to go up north and go to school there; awesome colleges in Northern Cali. Honestly I need my Hippo-lee-toe and Markie. lmao. School will be crazy because honestly I am hating AVID- or at least I did this last year. First time I have ever hated the program-ever.
Life is crazy everywhere else. Pressure to go to college and plus i have no life- that I will admit. The other things in life i am seriously not sure of. I feel like some people are drifting and honestly I know I'm drifting from there and not sure if i care or not. Mean i know but it's true. Like I'm sure where things in my life stand and what to do. I need out of Cali because everything you believe is ripped away before you ever realize it is- Cali tends to have that effect on people. I learn new things every day but somehow everything gets twisted and all i know is contradicted by everything. Too deep? ok now on to more ligther things.
I wanna go to a concert. I love the way i feel when the bass and guitars and vocals surround me. I feel more alive at a concert than i do anywhere else. But i want to go to the beach- a solo trip. but I have noo way of getting there. i need to clear my head- which i guess is why i am now blogging. never thought i would lmao. Maybe i need to go to the mountains- no one really understand why I go there. some think that it makes me depressed- but it doesn't it makes me realize who is real and who isnt. but i guess i get that feeling when i am at a concert, beach or mountains. its a sense of clarity i need in this moment.
ok so basically i'm pretty sure no one will read this but there i got almost everything out of my head. and i think that is enough insight to life for those who may have read it.
xoxo
me
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